This post is dedicated to you who sometimes, (or most of the time) feel like you’re not very good at life.  You, like me, look around at other people who seem to have it a together – cute outfits, good job, well behaved kids, decorated houses, and so on.    I am here to remind you (and mostly me) that this feeling is merely an illusion.  We all feel like that sometimes.  For me, when I have these feelings, I kinda feel a little guilty because right now and for the first time in my life I feel completely and totally loved by another human being. But if you are like me, here we are…. feeling like losers, like you’ve missed something, that you have no idea how to go about my daily life with meaning and purpose.  Wait a MINUTE!! Oh wait, isn’t that the REST of the world????  MY GOAL has always been for my life to be one of the perception that everyone else has their life together is truly a false view of the reality.  When we compare ourselves to other people it only sets us up to feel diminished and inconsequential.  Aren’t we all searching for meaning, for our lives to have some kind of impact on someone or something, even if it’s just ours?  TO be connected, belong to community?
I suppose that one cannot expect all aspects of a life to go smoothly all in convergence.  What would the challenge be there?   Too often in everyday life we get caught up in the mundane, the tedious and routine.  But I desire a better life, a fuller one.  A life filled with adventure.  I want to be always learning, always growing, always seeking.     While all is wholly wonderful in my relationship and home life, I have to confess, I have been having a hard time in my work life lately.  Mind you,  am running a business and feeling overwhelmed every day.


“In the morning, O Lord, You will hear my voice;
In the morning I will order my prayer to You and eagerly watch.” Ps. 5:3

“The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases, for His compassions never fail.  They are new every morning; Great is Your faithfulness. Lamentations 3:21-24

and then there is:

“Early to be, early to rise, makes a man healthy, wealthy, and wise.” Ben Franklin.

I’m not sure about those last two…..


ImageI cannot say that I “love” being an early riser.  It is who I am, and I cannot escape it.  I am able to say, though, that I have come to love the quiet stillness of the morning, the anticipation of a new day and all it brings.    




Inspiration from my current read:
“It has seemed to me that each year one should pause to take stock of himself, to ask: “Where am I going? What  am I becoming? What do I wish to do and become?  Most people whom I have encountered were without purpose, people who had given themselves no goal.  The first goal need not be the final one, for a sailing ship sails first by one wind, then another.  The point is that it is always going somewhere, proceeding toward a final destination.  Up to a point a ma n’s life is shaped by environment, heredity, and movements and changes in the world about him:then there comes a time when it lies within his grasp to shape the clay of his life into the sort of thing he wishes to be.  Only the weak blame parents, their race, their times, lack of good fortune, or the quirks of fate.  Everyone has it within his power to say, this I am today, that shall I be tomorrow.  The wish, however, must be implemented by deeds.”  
The Walking Drum, by Louis L’Amour.